I'm supposed to be doing a ton of cardio today, but so far I have only done one round. I think I will do intervals on Tue bike today because I'm too tired to run today. This has been a sleepy day in general. I even took a nap, but it didn't help. I'm in that first month of my diet so I'm just a little overcome with depression. There's nothing wrong, per se, I'm just depressed in general as my body adjusts to living without the happiness food brings me. Of course, having this insane baby fever doesn't help. I'm trying to forget about it move on, but its very hard. I know that having a baby is impossible, and a bad idea in general, but I still can't help this feeling. And now, I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Tony says he can handle talking about it, but I know better. And I can't have us both being depressed. I think my depression alone is plenty.
I'm only on day 3 of my diet and I'm really trying to stay on track, but its very hard. I want to do it, but on the other hand, I don't. I can't explain it. The allure of food is a lot to deal with, and the strictness of my diet makes it more difficult. But I have a problem with moderation, so strict is the only way this will work for me. Otherwise, I end up going too far, eating out too much, or just pigging out in general. I should go get the cardio out of the way before I decide its not worth it.
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